I'm rushing in the hallway and their I see "him" my daughter by my side crying her head off, I myself can not stop the tears that I coming down like a watter fall. I try to catch the back of his shirts but he is even farther away.
-Dady please don't go DADY! Please! DADDY!
She screams,we run to him to stop him, but every step we seem to take seems to take us farther away from "him".
-Jonathan Stop please stop! Love! please come back! JONATHAN!!Please!
It hurts please, someone stop the pain, the rage, the tears, stop it all, my life seemed at an end.
-Daddy! she was on her knees.
I stoped neet at her side crumbling down on the floor. I wated to get up but I have no energy
-WHY? I screemed
-why did you do it? I'm I not enought for you? Why her?
At those word he stoped and turned around, his face in pain. He said:
-She's more mature than you are.Sorry!
And he left.My daughter his, mine, got up and tried to run, catch him but befor she could take a step. I screamed loud, got up and ravaged everything that was in my way. Tears,pain,hatred made things worse, a lot worse. My world crumbled down.
-Mama, please, STOP, Daddy please come back!!!!
I lost you for someone else, you lost me for "her" and now your coming back five years later telling me I love you!I slaped your pretty face and said:
-I'm sorry I love someone who is more mature than you are he gave me and "MY" bayby girl a new life.
And I walke off.
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That is the dream that I have since this summer since "he" left me I try to forget him and this, but I can't seem to every song, touch, movies, places, seems to remind me of him I can't take the pain I try to shake it off by doing silly face and trying to smile but the efect seem to work for only a few hours before it comes back to hunt me down.